you always end up beside me in the stickiest of situations.

the first and the second.

and the third one in the dance floor.

maybe you're here to save me?

alright then.

i'm gonna hold on tight

I really should apologize to my Tabulas blog. This blog, which once held all the innermost thoughts and imaginings that I could muster (no matter how sophomoric) has been reduced to the clutterfuck that houses all of my frustrations. I will only post here for one reason and one reason alone, and what that reason is is for me to know and for you readers to never find out.

But I guess, in a way, that's an homage to the blog service. Like an old friend you can trust with anything and everything without having to stay in touch. This, I think, is how I treat Tabulas these days. I mentioned in a previous post how one of the best things about the service is the anonymity, but I think it's more than that. The community's become so big that for the first generation of bloggers who've moved on to other greener pastures, you can post something without keeping it private, and it's as good as your next best-kept secret.

In a way, this has become the one place where I can say

So where the bloody hell does that leave me?

can she listen to you like i do?

im scared of you. and what you can do to me. 

NO means NO.

and no thanks means no thanks. 

after talking to geru. i feel so much better.

twilight sucked.

Almost the year end and i want to address my thanks to whom i give my concern.

Thankyou peter for loving me even to my mood swing.....

Thankyou rosie and koos for the help and advice......

Thanks to god above for giving and answering my daily prayers. and giving me still the goodhealth

Thankyou for the wonderful season to appreciate.....

Thankyou my friend who always there with me .

Thanks to my tabu friends who often visit my site.

I wish im more healthier next year of 2009!

standing so close next to you

exchanging whispered conversations

of platonic thoughts of each other

and then you were texting her

and at the moment

i remembered the night justin broke my heart

the night where i was broken and fucked-up

and i ask myself how on earth,

how on earth, 

did we wind up in this place together?

and im not just talking about that night

but all nights and all conservations

why on earth are you doing this to me?